The Fear of 2012

"Today was my day off from work and i spent most of the morning watching youtube videos on doomsday 2012. Watching them I felt lost and depressed, I thought about why should i even bother finishing colledge if the world is going to end, but most importantly i thought of my daughter and the fact she is only four years old and has her whole life in front of her. I really dont know how to take all of this, didnt God say that he would come like a theif in the night, I guess mabe I should start going back to church. How do you deal with depressing issues of this world? " quoted exactly from Kurt a listener.

Above is a note we got from a listener we really wanted to share it with everyone because we're touched by the honesty in the post. Yesterday Dennis answered this note with his truth today its my turn to add my own take on the scenario.  The reason for both of us answering at different times is well I am more of a worrier than my husband.  Just this morning I woke up at 3 am wondering if we have a large enough support system or if we were too much on our own.  Since we moved here we have no friends and are not entangled in the community and all that worries me. If we would have to "run for shelter" we are not sure where we would go yet.

I know in my heart that there is nothing we can do if something disastrous happens but what scares me the most is - What if I can do something and I don't.  If a meteor falls from the sky I can do nothing about that.  If there are floods, volcanoes or earth quakes I am pretty much helpless. Okay I can accept those things -  maybe not happily but I can accept that earth changes are beyond my control.  My biggest fear is that I allow myself to stay asleep and the disaster comes from the the things I can have an effect on:  lack of money due to unemployment,  super inflation, price wars, food riots or, God forbid, and illness that I can't have treated.

Chances are good that there are disasters happening right now,  and you don't see them.  I would almost bet that right in your neighborhood even on your street someone is in risk of loosing their home due to foreclosure.  What about across the street could those folks be declaring bankruptcy because they are loosing their business?  Often good people are wondering what they are going to eat next or how to pay the utilities.  But so what? This type of thing has been happening for a long time to,  well you know… "losers". Right?  Disasters that  shake our lively hood and life styles are up 60%.  To good people who didn't see it coming - one day they were working and the next day they aren't.  The difference is that we are all learning to be more compassionate and are reaching out to help. Simply, we are waking up.

I believe in my heart that the earth is changing and we are evolving. I believe that by 2012 our world will begin to change as we know it.  That's why I prepare with food , water and medical storage. But the most important preparation I do is by learning that the one thing I can change is my thinking and that makes my life now and later better for my daughter not to mention myself. Each day I ask myself,  "If you knew you only had a year to live what great thing would you do today?"   Then I try and do it.

Love to all my friends…Penny